10-6-09 Dedicated to Deaj. Remenisce and Kill Me.

I'm only really updating for my babygirl Deaj hah. I'm not in a good mood but it's for her. I've been listening to "Officially Missing You" all day. If you don't know the song...sucks for you. Well, I'm slowly reverting back to my old ways. Filled with apathy and not giving a damn what happens to me. Suicidal thoughts? Hah. I wanna be back in the place that makes me happiest no matter what's happening to me, California. I want to leave this world. Oh yeah, I'm starting to write a lot more. I'll put a sample up at the end of this post. The weekend pretty much made me happy til Sunday hah. Weekend review.....

Friday: We had late start so me and Thomas got to school at like 10. Then Ethen told me to skip before school started so we did and chilled at Tim's. Slept more and woke up at like 1 and started drinking JagerBOMBS! Whas real good?????? Hahaha then we picked up Dylan at 2:30. We came back to Tim's and drank more. Then we went to the skatepark for Gnar crew to shred a pit. I took horrible pictures because I was buzzed and manual focused the whole time(I have no idea why). Then went back to Tim's around 7 and drank more haha. At like 8 me and Dylan decided to ride the Vespa(moped) all the way to the school for the football game. Stupid idea really, we didn't wanna pay so we tried finding ways to get in. We spent like 15 mins with our drunk selves and went around back and tried to hop the fence. We were successful until the cops came and grabbed Dylan. I hopped over and dipped into the woods hella fast though bluh. Dylan got out free cuz he knew Officer Cotton. He popped his knee out of place. I hopped over like 4 fences and ripped my cargo shorts(HELLA HEATED) and ran across a baseball field and then got picked up by Tim and Ethen. We got back to Tim's and drank and danced until Kelis and some of her friends showed up. We then left for the mansion and grabbed some brewski on the way. When we got there it was 10:30. We drank what we had left of the Jager and played pong(I suck still idk why) and drank Tim and Ethen's beers for fucknig 4 straight games. I kept saying "Dude! I need to get on your level...wait I think I am." Haha. We didn't leave til 5am. We drank for like 14 hours. Oh dear god.

Tim and Dylan

Ethen with the Rock to Fakie

HIGH FIVE!

Saturday:Woke up at like 11 in Tim's movie room. Then got picked up ran some errands with the madre and chilled at home til Thomas came and got me. He picked me up and then the night had started. We got to Christian's and chilled and drank. People I remember there: Julio, Thomas, Christian, Steve, Cameron, Sherra, Katie, Claire, Sophie, and Georgia. Pretty good night. It was a laid back chill sesh shindig type of thing. Played pong and sucked again. I had the first shot of Everclear for the night and I felt that shit throughout my whole body. I lost my fucking lens cap there. I mean, it's not that bad but still man. Whatever. Thomas almost hooked up with a freshmen AYYYYYYYYE! I'm really surprised at my memory while being in a trashed state of mind.

Steve and Julio(Julio is obviously gone)

Claire and Thomas wasted and Julio wasted

Julio and Katie wasted.

Everyones favorite segment of the night. Julio's advice.
Shitty ass snap shots but whatever we had fun.
Sunday:Got home and things were said and I feel like shit. What a great way to kill my weekend right? Eh.




Yeah. So the girl I guess I still like is a whore, yet she's a virgin. HAHAH trippy shit ain't it breh. Whatever. I miss the California because that's where I belong. Or just survive and hopefully get into UA. I still feel like shooting myself haha.Too lazy right now to write a poem so I'll update again just for Deaj and have a poem.